Retrieved from: Les miracles qu’a été peint | 19 March 2015 19:11 PDT Three hours ago I came home from school, feeling extremely exhausted and cranky. I’d had a hard math test that took an hour after school to finish. I had to miss my favourite class of the day – science – the only class I looked forward to – for a dumb rally for sixth graders. The eighth graders in my class who said they’d help did not show up, and I was left stranded with three other eighth graders to run the whole thing. My science project was not working and driving me insane. During dinnertime my parents kept talking excitedly about the vacation they’re planning and forcing me to go on – even though I’d said fifty million times I’d rather stay home locked up all summer – I most certainly did not want to go on that pointless vacation. I told them good luck dealing with me unless there’s skydiving and river-rafting. They told me to shut up and said I was annoying. They were being annoying. No one had ever considered what I wanted to do this summer break. So I’m not going to cooperate with their plans that have nothing to do with me. They told me to wash the dishes. I did not want to wash the dishes for them. I thought I’d rather starve.
Nevertheless I washed the dishes. I did not wear that cranky face anymore because I did not want to be stupid. I did not stay angry because my grandfather had said anger equals capitulation. I did not complain about washing the dishes because at least we had enough income to get dishes. I did not think of all those annoying things with the knowledge they would all go away soon. I am writing so that I will calm down. This silly hope and persistent stubbornness is the last thing keeping me intact and pulling me back from insanity. I thank the Lord for keeping me alive with the belief that tomorrow will better than today. When your world is exploding, you cannot explode with it. This is how I survived from falling into insanity.
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